If a person wants to express something, it's more likely to happen during depressing times. Everyone has ups and downs in life. Or downs ocassionally highlighted by a flash. I am a bit mad. I feel like because of personal problems, health problems, family problems, oh whatever, all kind of problems lead to me avoiding people or not having enough time and energy for them. Or I concentrate on a certain thing and then I'm losing everyone, one by one like it happened before. Sometimes I doubt myself if it's right giving up majority of things for something and if it's worth the effort.